I'm glad you asked.
I decided that regardless of whether we are in or out of the EU, the UK would not change significantly and would not improve because the bulk of the fault lies with our politicians. I think this is exacerbated by our electoral system which I want to see heavily reformed and doubt will happen in my lifetime.
Part of me favours leaving because I also disagree with some of the structure of the EU governance and would rather retain more direct control over UK affairs. However, I'm aware that the change I want is so unlikely to occur in either scenario that to vote on that basis seemed pointless. Ultimately it felt better to let others decide and I would be okay with either outcome.
Looking at it now. The referendum result was to leave the EU. That must be passed in some form to maintain the integrity of our democracy. My belief that the fault lies with our politicians appears true as they have failed to agree on a vision for the future or made sufficient plans and assurances to the public in the quite likely outcome of no deal. This should always have been seriously planned for because otherwise the EU rightly assumed we were not prepared to walk away from negotiations and thus backed the UK into a corner.
We could have done better but that's not what happened. May's deal tries to please everyone and in doing so gives us the worst of both options leave and remain. Tied to the EU with less agency. It's been rejected twice and has little support.
I believe in being responsible for your actions. I know, a strange concept today. It's harder to grow if you are shielded from consequences. The politicians who let us down need to see and be responsible for their failures. The people that voted leave need to see and feel the consequences of the risk they took. Remain voters who refused to accept the result and continued to sow divisions and obstruct planning for the future should feel the consequences of their actions.
It won't be easy but the UK can survive no deal. It may even succeed in the long term. Just as we could have survived a housing crash. Just like we could have survived the financial crash without destroying the nations finances. This is the end of the road that those in power promised. No more kicking the can and asking to be saved. The UK needs to make the best of what is to come. Whether we are stronger after it or not is down to each and every one of us.
Sadly I have always believed, and still do, that the end result will be an unfavourable deal where little changes. To my mind that would be truly humiliating.